by your own admisson, you spent at - at least part of - what should have been a misbegotten youth - in the party of the right, thus you're obviously living out adolescent fantasies, the equivalent of john mayall or some other 40-50/something guy 30 years ago with thining hair in a ponytail and a serape beguiling nubile hippy 'chicks' (place smiley face here)... mh