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> I had to stop trying to decipher it, I could
> feel myself losing the will to live.
If you continue to read and read and read you pass through this too, abandoning even your fear of ceasing to live, and arrive on an other side where all is calm and still and clear. It's a kind of ecstasy, though you can not move; preconceptions, delusions drop away, one after another, like falling grey veils.
Now that's literary stylin'.
Yours WDK - WKiernan at ij.net