Joanna
snit snat wrote:
> At 01:07 PM 2/11/2005, snit snat wrote:
>
>> life so sucks, I tell ya.
>
>
> discussing sonshine's prospects for college....
>
> he came home from work the other night (top salesperson at Finish
> Line! he's a hard worker, that kid, and I HATE HATE HATE it that he
> has to work his ass off. I had to, as well, working 40 hrs a week my
> sr. year, but damn it, I wanted things to be different for my kid. Not
> the life of Riley, but not having to scrounge for everything. FUCK
> EXPLOITERS!).
>
> he's actually thinking about becoming a cop. Talk of joining the
> service is verboten -- and he gets loads of mail and phone calls
> because he scored really high on those tests.
>
> a cop! the kid has always made fun of cops -- picked it up in films.
> the kid went through a harrowing experience with cops who broke into
> our home years ago! the kid lived in a neighborhood where the utter
> hypocrisy of the cops was obvious. he saw the racism, regularly.
>
> a cop!
>
> and then I sit here and think, "Well, fuck, it's stable work!"
>
> I pray -- yes, these days I'm starting to see the comfort there'd be
> in believing in something like justice ruling the world -- that I can
> do better for my kid than this.
>
> a cop!
>
> I appeal to whatever I can appeal to to make sure this doesn't happen
> and, as I do I think, "Oh, great, if there's a god, it probably likes
> cop and will strike me down for hoping my kid doesn't go into law
> enforcement curriculum at the local community college.
>
> and yet, what the hell did I do the last five years. yes, indeedy, I
> worked in information security. Now, there's some police work for the
> private sector. right? right. so, who am i to talk. let the kid become
> a cop. it's stable work. benefits. paid for transportation!
>
> life's a bitch. the other option is offing myself and he gets social
> security benefits that ought to get him through a decent state college
> in NY, where his father lives. not really an option, but in my darker
> moments, it's almost inviting. I'm NOT serious, but it's the kind of
> abstract thinking that goes on when you a. don't get enough sleep and
> b. drink too much Peet's (thanks Joanna! :)
>
> a cop. The kid wants to be a sizzlean!
>
> kelley
>
>
> "We live under the Confederacy.
> We're a podunk bunch of swaggering
> pious hicks."
>
> --Bruce Sterling
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